My Vaginal, Unmedicated, Homebirth

Why? Why vaginal birth? Many articles casually suggested getting a c-section, but I knew I was too healthy for such a thing. Plus, vaginal made the most sense because it's natural though I had many ignorant fears sold to me by the media. Once I was educated, it was still a little scary to imagine … Continue reading My Vaginal, Unmedicated, Homebirth

The Day Nobody Died

A father and son quietly walked a mile deep into one of the few remaining forests reserved for hunting. They both wore bright neon colors to stay visible to other hunters and had guns affixed to their shoulders. The father was also carrying a backpack filled with supplies. "Can I have a snack, please?" the … Continue reading The Day Nobody Died

The Experience

... and then I left my body. I hadn't known nothingness before. My senses couldn't detect anything. If time was here, I didn't know how much of it came and went. I felt, thought, and imagined nothing about the nothingness. Then the stillness moved. The darkness penetrated so deep it became bright, black sunlight. The … Continue reading The Experience

Conspiratorist, Extremist

The more I share my opinions and thoughts, the more self conscious I feel. My mind is always telling me how much of a conspiratorist and extremist I appear to be in other people's minds. Off grid living? Natural birth? Veganism? Unmarried and pregnant? Pro unschooling? My mind tries to convince me I'm a total … Continue reading Conspiratorist, Extremist

Pregnancy & Women’s Bodies/Rights

If you missed it, I’m pregnant. I’m feeling all the things you imagine I’d be feeling and more. Then amplify those ideas infinitely. I never knew such joy and anxiety could swirl together like a perfectly made PB&J sandwich. It’s a delicious nostalgia of youthfulness, but also all that sugar in the jam, the peanut … Continue reading Pregnancy & Women’s Bodies/Rights

Big Island, Aloha!

Did you know aloha means hello, goodbye, as well as love, compassion, peace, and much more?! It is truly a beautiful word encompassing the spirit of Hawai'i, which means the breath (ha) and water (wai) of life from god.  I didn't get far into Kona, a.k.a the Big Island, before I knew this island was … Continue reading Big Island, Aloha!

Living Forward

We live backwards - Trails of regrets Following us ominously. Let's live forwards - Trails of possibilities Ahead of us auspiciously. Why do I worry? Most of the time, a great 90-98%, my worries don't come true. Even the times they do, I get through it anyway. I'm not receiving some reward for the most … Continue reading Living Forward

Your Secrets’ Keeper

Ever shared a big secret? A secret you felt would tarnish the self created image you've curated? I've been sharing my self altering secrets over the course of almost 2 years with my partner. There aren't many, but they were real enough I felt embarrassed to keep them hidden. Like almost all of us, we … Continue reading Your Secrets’ Keeper

Born Day Anniversary

I'm a few hours away from my 28th bornday anniversary. In my early 20s, a knowing began its birth in my gut. I started feeling my 27th year of life would be a turning point, a penultimate one with a final other when I become 30. The latter hasn't become clear yet, but I know … Continue reading Born Day Anniversary