Self Destruct

A quote says it's not whole death we often seek, but the death of the parts of the self that hurts. As I see it, we all have versions of the self based on experiences and ideas. Some call that ego, I'll call it self. It's easier to want to destroy the parts of ourselves … Continue reading Self Destruct

Growing Beyond Acceptance

Recently I realized how much I let go in the name of being accepted by my partner or in the excuse of having a child. Putting these flaws on pause for a lil while was okay, to rest my heart and head in the receptive coziness of unconditional love. But, I'm a creature with a … Continue reading Growing Beyond Acceptance

The Truth About Writer’s Block

The creative well withinDrains and dries when lies begin.It's the original artist's sin."CREATIVE PIECES", A MIND FULL OF COLOR If you're experiencing writer's block (or any artistic block) and can't figure out why, I'll tell you the truth: it's because you're lying. Before 14 years old, I was writing like it was my job with … Continue reading The Truth About Writer’s Block

Algorithms Attempt to Mimic God

It's around 4am when I wake up coughing. I want to ignore the disturbance and go back to sleep, but I hear my higher self telling me to get the hell up and drink water. I bat away my usual thoughts that I'm dehydrated as I wiggle my arm from under my little one's head. … Continue reading Algorithms Attempt to Mimic God

I Am Enough

Snatching at the heels of every step I want to take is the demon of desire whispering I'm not good enough and how to be nice and pleasing at my expense in three uneasy steps. Continue reading or listen here. If I want something, consider if other people want it for me. If they don't, … Continue reading I Am Enough

Being A Stay At Home Mom

You may find it helpful to (re)read my thoughts about becoming a stay at home mom and about my birthing experience. It's been a little over 4 months of momming. This is a partial sum of my experience. Listen to the audio version here! How Do I Mom? My experience with kids was occasionally taking … Continue reading Being A Stay At Home Mom

I Am Nothing

I've never been a big fan of the sea, the ocean, the beach. I couldn't swim so it felt silly to spend hours wallowing in the shallow end. One time I almost drowned and no one realized it or even cared when I told the story. I wouldn't say I was traumatized by it. Listen … Continue reading I Am Nothing

Silhouette

The silhouette 👤, the darkness, the shadow of it all is that it isn't always easy, fun, or beautiful to care for self, a new soul, and a partner plus the relationship dynamic between the three: motherhood, being a partner, and the son and father bond, plus how all three fits together as one. Listen … Continue reading Silhouette

12 Things I Learned From My Newborn

I went into motherhood knowing it'd be all about the lessons. I was here to guide my son about how life works, but he was here to teach/remind me how life really works or should work. I didn't realize gems would get dropped so early! Here are new things I learned and a few things … Continue reading 12 Things I Learned From My Newborn